I made a tactical error with my last post. I had been thinking, abstractly, that I should start posting livejournal updates again, and had planned to do that starting right after my 'we are here' post.
What I hadn't been considering (basically because its the sort of thing I try not to think about) was what a bad headspace I was in at that time. I was hurting badly, but I don't believe in talking to others about my hurts because I don't find that spreading it makes it better. It just makes other people hurt too, and then I hurt more because on top of my troubles I've gone and hurt my friends. So, for me, talking about it makes it worse. Empathic people who *really* want to help, only make it many times worse.
So, basically I had nothing I wanted to talk about that I was willing to talk about. Hopefully things will be changing a bit from now on, as I hope I'm over the worst of it, for now.